Meniti Kasih

"Dan apabila hamba-hambaKu bertanya kepadamu(Muhammad) tentang Aku, maka sesungguhnya Aku dekat.Aku kabulkan permohonan orang yang berdoa apabila dia berdoa kepadaKu. Hendaklah mereka itu memenuhi perintahKu dan beriman kepadaKu, agar mereka memperoleh kebenaran" (2:186)

Give me a break, but don't break me.

i hate myself for doing something i should not do. i hate doing things i don't like to. i hate being in this position. i feel numb. i need a break. i need to avoid a break from expectations a break from pleasing so many people a break of being pressured a break of being pushed. it is undeniably hard being a woman. u have so many rights to fulfill. we can't please EVERYONE. but does ANYONE care to understand us? but somehow I think I deserved it. maybe it serves me right. maybe it is just me thinking to much. I think I just need that break. God, please help me persevere. give me faith that I will not always be in this position. send me Your 'angels'. send me the love. send me those guidance You used to send me because now I think I need it the most. I stop a while to think about it. Because when I think about it I wanna quit. and don't let me quit. I am not a loser to quit. How I wish time is running faster, so I can pass this. But with time running out, will I be ready? You don't need to understand this.

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